What Does It Mean To Lose One’s Soul?

How does it feel?

What does it look like?

Better yet, how does it feel to NOT lose one’s soul?

What does THAT look like? 🤩

Answering the second one, is much easier for me! Hallelujah!

For saving is a process, just like being unsaved, was or is!

A perpetual machine has been made (is at work as we communicate) to steal (kill & destroy) your soul!

What IS your soul?

As I was taught, per disciple training, via Min Doris/New Life Covenant Chicago (Central Campus, whatz up! 😁)…

The soul is composed of 3 parts:

The Mind,

The Body

AND the Spirit!

Many believe the Spirit & the Soul are one & the same!

I believe the Soul is where the 3 combine…

What science today calls our subconscious. (The Id would be man’s attempt at labelling (controlling) more of the unknown).

The discussion of the Id borders on one’s Nature, as in one’s spirit…

I do not like where such discussions go, where all such discussions go without Elohim.

The World/Society (Atheistic Science/business/everything) does it’s best to CONVINCE humanity that it is naturally evil (ie: https://hbr.org/2019/07/why-people-get-away-with-being-rude-at-work?ab=hero-main-text)

I am here to REMIND you!….

That the MAJORITY of the world (this planet/humanity) will CHOOSE evil/wickedness,


There are those who will learn to NOT choose evil/wickedness!

Those who will learn NOT to harden their hearts,

Those who will choose the CONSEQUENCES of keeping their hearts open, to right-use-ness, to Love, to compassion, to mercy, to Yeshua/Holy Spirit/Elohim!

A very tall, cool glass of water, to those who thirst! Hallelujah!

For Seeds looking to sprout! Searching to produce the fruits of the Holy Spirit!

A Reminder, ya’ll!

As I too seperate myself/shown evil/wickedness I knew not of! An environment I was raised in!

May the Holy Spirit show you such things, with His Love, Mercy & Grace!

It feels like death!

Like watching yourself be numb,

Unable to stop it!

To believe that it is ok! That it is better, INSTEAD OF knowing!

In your heart, in your soul, it is the right thing to do!

Where one’s heart sings!

That is the Holy Spirit’s reward to you for CHOOSING right-use-ness/Him! 😄

My Ways Are Not Your Ways

Lean Not On Your Understanding

For I Have Chosen Thee.

So I ask why hast Thou not chosen them?

Those closest to me? My loved ones?

Is this how You feel for each one of us?

Will I get any rest tonight? (currently 4:23a been awake since 2:15… graveyard shift, eh? What is the name of the shift from 1 or 2a – 9 or 10am? Is there such a thing?)

For this eating of one”s soul, watching my loved ones harden themselves…

I do trust You Lord!

What I see may not be permanent (for life), yet it is so very painful to watch!

To see,

To have words

Not understood,

To have them fail me


I did not hear once too

I heard

And did Not respond

Until it was all my spirit COULD hear!

For Thou were yelling! (Thunder & Lighting spoke to me)

Now I learn how love speaks,

As the devoid tries to copy Thee. 😁

Failing miserably, hallelujah! 😁

No weapon formed against me shall prosper!

Ty Lord for saving me!

From the daily machine, that slowly but surely, kills the soul.

I prefer the pain of a righteous death, one chosen, in the Way.

In the Truth, the Way & the LIFE!

(small things, like verse abnormalities, are not so small…

Indicators of lack of desire to be better…

In how one responds to such a transgression…

The How & the Why are more important than the What.

For what you see & hear change before what you do!

Only Elohim sees such.

It is ok to cry for them

It is another to change another

Or to change oneself!

For neither can we/I do.

Just pray…

Just praise…

And more shall be added unto thee.

In Yeshua’s holy name I pray, Amen!


Job 17:4

Another Thing…

Keeps coming up!

Whenever someone else makes a mistake, the people around them never let them forget it?!

Bringing up stuff that happened when they were 7?

I thought that is what Mother’s we’re for! (LMBO! 😁:-D Just saying, if a guilt trip is to be laid…(oh reminds me of what Jewish Mothers are known for! (Ya’lls need Yeshua, like for realz!)


(Must mention, this is not for repeat, serial, back to back offenders! Not as an excuse anyway! We can forgive, yet not be there for it to happen again!)


The Lord is showing me one of my strong points! (Hallelujah)

Especially when it comes to my own mistake!

(Cause there is another reason why people continue bothering you about it, cause IT BOTHERS YOU!)

(If you have truly let it go, most people stop bothering you about it, after a few times of seeing it doesn’t bother you!)

One of my strong points, in dealing with other people’s messes too!

A thing many do not know about me, assuming I am like them! 😀 (alhumdulillah) 😀

Thaddeus 10, DOL 1

People used by the devoid, try to bring you down with constant reminders of one’s faults, the harping on it… signature of the Accuser!

People prefer a lie, a comfortable lie, vs the truth, especially a real uncomfortable truth.


Why are some people offended by truth, even if it is spoken or acted out in love?”

there are plenty of people who are offended by truth even when it is lovingly presented.

Unfortunately, in the spiritual world, some people view the narrow nature of truth as “narrow mindedness.”

(They are not walking in the Holy Spirit then.)

The Bible itself confirms that the spiritual world is very narrow

doing things the wrong way spiritually usually has very delayed consequences.

(Speaking directly to my circumstance Lord! Hallelujah!)

it is essential for each of us to work hard to discover what is and what is not true

There are great blessings for obeying the truth, and serious consequences for denying it.

There are many verses on lying, yet the one I saw clearly, I cannot seem to find now!

(I find that interesting as of late! I believe the Holy Spirit is allowing me to ‘see’.)

Speak the truth, the uncomfortable one, about yourself, not just others!

Truth without love…is it really truthful?

When one’s words are correct, yet the spirit behind them is not!

I cry because I am sick of my words being twisted in such a way!

People assuming I am coming from such an ugly place!

I cry because…

What kind of mind, what kind of heart does it take, to think that way?

(Blackman, Blackman, why do you not forgive yourself?)

Why do people WANT to think negative of others?

I cry because of that!

There is no escape, since I am surrounded by such!

I desire not to speak around such evil hearts!

I’ve even considered…

I am judged by how I look and recently I have noticed how really nice looking women are perceived, how the majority are…

That I am perceived as such, as well.

I have never operated based on my looks!

I have been made aware of them and not in good ways.

The Lord allows me to be free, with my looks for the first time in my life!

To be comfortable with my looks, when others are not.

To not hide!

Like I use to.

The truth presses upon me until I release it!

Aware of possible ramifications, before I even speak it (hallelujah)

Should I fear that more than…

Where is my focus?

Off Elohim, away from Yeshua…

Make the Holy Spirit happy!

Keep Him happy (in love) with me.

Bump everything else!

You will find many blessings standing on such truth!

I have survived spiritual stoning (came out with injuries too).

May this time be oh so different!

In Yeshua’s holy name, I pray, amen.

His Rest 2

Many today complain of lack of time, how rushed they are, how stressed out they are.

Hebrews 3:7-11

7 Therefore, just as the Holy Spirit says,“Today, if you hear His voice,
8 Do not harden your hearts as when they provoked Me,
As in the day of trial in the wilderness,
9 Where your fathers tried Me by testing Me,
And saw My works for forty years.“10 Therefore I was angry with this generation,
And said, ‘They always go astray in their heart, And they did not know My ways’; As I swore in My wrath,
They shall not enter My rest.’”

The Peril of Unbelief

12 Take care, brethren, that there not be in any one of you an evil, unbelieving heart that falls away from the living God. 13 But encourage one another day after day, as long as it is still called “Today,” so that none of you will be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin. 14 For we have become partakers of Christ, if we hold fast the beginning of our assurance firm until the end, 15 while it is said,

Today if you hear His voice,
Do not harden your hearts, as when they provoked Me.”

Many do not believe they are commiting evil, by not putting Elohim first.

That they have plenty of time to put Elohim first.

Yet these same people claim not to have time, are stressed out and rushing around is gaining on them!

If you want more time, give more personal, quality time to Elohim!

For Hebrews 3:11 & Hebrews 4 says unrest is the peril of unbelief!

The Believer’s Rest

Therefore, let us fear if, while a promise remains of entering His rest, any one of you may seem to have come short of it. For indeed we have had good news preached to us, just as they also; but the word they heard did not profit them, because it was not united by faith in those who heard.

For we who have believed enter that rest, just as He has said,

As I swore in My wrath,
They shall not enter My rest,”

Therefore, since it remains for some to enter it, and those who formerly had good news preached to them failed to enter because of disobedience, 

He again fixes a certain day, “Today,” saying through David after so long a time just as has been said before,

Today if you hear His voice,
Do not harden your hearts.”

Romans 8:12 has posted articles on hardheartedness before (search for hard heartedness or hardheartedness on Romans 8:12’s site for other articles, hard heartedness appears!).

Hardheartedness is also a curse from Elohim, for disobedience, which much of the world has today!

A person gaining more of the qualities of 1st Corinthians 13:4-8, is testimony to growth, new growth! Definately a closer connection with the Vine, Christ, Himself!

More opposition from people who do not even know you, can be another indicator of one’s effectiveness against the devoid.

Internally amazed at your own behavior, for the better, more Christ-like, is the best indicator of Elohim thinking of you as a believer! As obedient to Him. 😀

While others dance to things not of Christ (in His eyes), pray that they too, one day, not only experience His Peace, His Rest, while being alive, to also continue/remain in His Rest!

For the gulf is widening, the veil thickening between those who pretend belief & those who do not pretend!

Tis why the Holy Spirit has me reiterating His Rest!

For it is an urgent subject!

Since such urgency is being conveyed to me, by the Holy Spirit on this subject,

From past experience something really bad is coming & the only way to ‘weather’ it, will be in His Rest!

For the ‘unbending’ ones will break!

And may the believers be as the Palm Tree in a hurricane, firmly rooted & extremely flexible! Bubble Wrapped by Christ, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen!

(There are those who follow the Holy Spirit, yet have not verbally accepted Christ (& so one’s course/guidance from the Holy Spirit is not as clear, as it will be in Christ)…

Do not fear…He, Elohim will guide you closer to Him!

My darkest day without Yeshua, led me to Him.

May all true believers be included in His Rest, His Protection, His Strong Tower, during the coming storm, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen!

Any good deed outside of Christ falls by the wayside, becomes useless chaff:

John 5:4

Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. 

i bear witness how every good deed i did/attempted, instead led to my downfall! My destruction!

In Christ? Everything i do towards Elohim, is magnified 7-70 times!

B.C. i became overwhelmed, lost, bitter, burned, etc.

A.D., when i become overwhelmed & i cry out and give up, giving it to Christ, i discovered how i was arrogantly trying to do it myself!

How i got in His Way!

What Christ has been trying to teach me all along made sense now, made more sense!

i am discovering why it is so important for us to respond ‘in Love’ at all times!

We are blameless then! Free from sin, in those moments! In Yeshua’s eyes!

i no longer hurt someone like me, B.C.! 😀 (Crush their spirit).

i am much less afraid of sounding like a ‘Jesus Freak’.

Of being considered one by those not in Christ currently!

For many so-called-in Christ (Christians) have already accused me of such!

And regardless of the non-acceptance, i delivered! As demanded by the Holy Spirit, by Christ Himself.

As reiterated by Christ many times, in different ways!

(Elohim’s way of expressing urgency, direness. He repeats Himself!)

He may say it gently.

When He says it, anything, more than once?!

Please take it to heart!

Those under the guidance of the Holy Spirit, already understand this!

i have discovered my very bad breath, is an answer to a prayer B.C.,

A very strong desire to be ugly instead, sometimes i wished i could tear off my face…

For my looks had/have too many jump to the wrong conclusions!

And i was sick of it! 🙂

Now, i see the benefit of being bait for Christ! ;-D

Being clear, unfettered bait, for Christ!

Currently fettered bait

(pic above, so links will not work)

A chain, enslavement, bondage bait!

And i want no fault or blame to be seen as i speak & walk in/of You, Oh Lord! 😀

i felt like Pinocchio, an unreal boy, begged to be ‘real’ to be normal.

Not appreciating the benefits of not being ‘normal’ until the Holy Spirit began talking to me, rescuing me, loving me! 😀

And so, i began with ‘self’, meaning those who claim Christ.

Today i begin with those who do not! Purposefully!

For we search for true believers (sheep) outside of Christ now, for they exist, as did i, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen! 😀

(Matthew 24, 2018 2pm PST)

Haters Are Mockers and Mockers are…?!


“What does it mean that God is not mocked?”


<If you have haters, you have mockers. And until EVERYONE RESPECTS Elohim, we will receive ridicule from someone. For we must FIRST give respect to Elohim, the Father, His son, Yeshua and the Holy Spirit. R812>

To mock God is to disrespect, dishonor, or ignore Him. It is a serious offense committed by those who have no fear of God or who deny His existence. The most easily recognized form of mockery is disrespect typified by verbal insults or other acts of disdain. It is associated with ridicule, scoffing, and defiance. Mockery is a dishonoring attitude that shows low estimation, contempt, or even open hostility.


<for Webster and the others definition of mockery today is VERY limited…ALWAYS look for the way the Bible defines things.>

In the Bible mockery is a behavior and attitude shown by the fool (Psalm 74:22), the wicked (Psalm 1:1), the enemy (Psalm 74:10), the hater of knowledge (Proverbs 1:2213:1), the proud (Psalm 119:51Isaiah 37:17), and the unteachable (Proverbs 15:12). A mocker goes beyond mere lack of judgment to making a conscious decision for evil. Mockers are without a spirit of obedience, teachability, discernment, wisdom, worship, or faith.


<many people today are making a CONSCIOUS decision to do something they KNOW is wrong, this is evil.>

Those who mock God will mock the people of God as well. The prophet Jeremiah “became the laughingstock of all my people” and was mocked “in song all day long” (Lamentations 3:14). Mockery of God’s prophets was commonplace (2 Chronicles 36:16). Nehemiah was mocked by his enemies (Nehemiah 2:19). Elisha was mocked by the youths of Bethel (2 Kings 2:23). And of course our Lord Jesus was mocked—by Herod and his soldiers (Luke 23:11), by the Roman soldiers (Mark 15:20Luke 23:36), by a thief on a cross (Luke 23:39), and by the Jewish leaders who passed by the cross (Matthew 27:41).

It is easy for us as believers to point the finger at those outside the church who mock God. But the most subtle mockery of God, and the most dangerous, comes from those of us sitting in church. We are guilty of mockery when we behave with an outward show of spirituality or godliness without an inward engagement or change of heart.

<Wow! and TY Yeshua!> 😀 <for i have been having this problem for a looooong time now. I didn’t grow up with the level of mockery/haters that exist today! It puzzled me so! That i looked up mockers in the bible and started reading those verses out loud, whenever attacked with it…and it got worse! Now i understand more of why. TY Yeshua!> 😀

<FAKERS! Or as the bible says, HYPOCRISY!>

Charles G. Finney, a preacher in the 1800s, wrote about the effects of mocking God: “To mock God is to pretend to love and serve him when we do not; to act in a false manner, to be insincere and hypocritical in our professions, pretending to obey him, love, serve, and worship him, when we do not. . . . Mocking God grieves the Holy Spirit, and sears the conscience; and thus the bands of sin become stronger and stronger. The heart becomes gradually hardened by such a process.”

God warns that mockery of what is holy will be punished.

There are repercussions for ignoring God’s directives and willfully choosing sin.

<Consciously choosing something you KNOW is wrong>


Ananias and Sapphira’s deception brought about a swift and public judgment (Acts 5:1–11). Galatians 6:7 states a universal principle: “Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.”

God cannot be deceived (Hebrews 4:12–13).

The Bible shows us the way to live a blessed life, sometimes by the good examples of godly men and women and sometimes by the negative examples of those who choose to follow another path. Psalm 1:1–3 says, “Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers,


but whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on his law day and night. That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither—whatever they do prospers.”

<I am just in awe. R812 Hallelujah.>

<i realize upon collecting photos for the subject of Mockery that we have a culture of Mockery in the US, we take the gold. R812>


<and yeah! Black folks love to do the your-momma-jokes, we made an Art of Dis’>

<with all THAT in mind-we all need a prayer against the Spirit of Hypocrisy>



<see the complete unmodified version of this prayer by clicking the link above>

<i am gonna have to write one Lord! for they ALL SUCK!>


Mocking spirits are easy to discern and silence when you know the truth!

<DANGER! The Bible says DO NOT rebuke a mocker! Proverbs 9:7-12> 



When mockery began its assault against what God was doing in my life, I declared out loud the exact opposite.

Let me give you an example.

Once someone called me stupid for believing I could be renewed and changed.  I declared; “I must be brilliant or the enemy would not use you to say that.”

Demons of Mockery Can Tag Team With Rejection

When spirits of rejection ganged up with the mocking spirits, I declared, under my breath:  ”I am not rejected, I am the apple of God’s eye!”

<this is a MUCH BETTER response to mocking-remember what the Holy Spirit tells you.>

I began to think like this every time I heard or felt something that did not line up with the truth found in God’s word.

It actually got quite comical when people mocked me, I became joyous.  Pretty soon the enemy gave up!

One of the people used to mock me that year actually slammed their hands on a table and stated: “I can’t get to you anymore!”

I realized that a demon was speaking through her, so I quickly said, “Good it’s time for you to move on!”

I had won that war!

You can win too when you study what God says about you.  All hell will try and deceive you, but your purpose is the same today as it was the day you were born!

Speak the opposite of mockery!

Changing your thinking is a great first step.  If you need help in breaking demonic assignments, that have created a pattern of negative thinking…

<Read Overcoming the Victim Spirit, join Aap-The Attitude Adjustment Program, or make your own like i did! (Check out the best version of The Attitude Adjustment Program on Romans 8:12’s Pinterest Board!>

It’s never too late to start.  Your purpose is waiting for you!