Video: Be A King. Dealing with Anxiety during Perilous Times

Bernice King and 2 others.

Siesta Over?

Well, i tried to prepare a couple of weeks ago and then stress got a hold on my life!

Working on a few things, like changing Website themes, to go more with a newsletter feel.

Not spending $70 on a Website theme! (Even though it looks absolutely amazing!) (Breathtaking cost mulah folks!)

I am glad that Paul 8, Ra’ah is here and I am NOT all stressed out!

Cause i was worried there for a moment!

The good thing is my creativity is coming back and my positive outlook! (Even though the people who live upstairs in this shared house seem to enjoy pissing me off! 😁)

Breathe In Yeshua, Breathe Out is something I am working on! (Following my own advice, eh?)

I am up to 9 min now!

Thinking R813 Ministries (new name folks!) will begin to produce 1 newsletter every other week!

Like the end of this week (Sat or should it be Fri?) Publish a page/newsletter, instead of 1 or 2 articles a day, 7-14 articles every 2 weeks!

My brain says trying to produce 7-14 articles by Fri or Sat is too much!

So, this may be it for R812…this posting, for like 14 weeks or so!

Publish, take a week to publish next one! ie: Ps1127 would publish by the 28th of March!

This Sabbatical is already producing blessings on top of blessings – (Xross baby! 😁)

And there are other wonderful things happening concerning the Ministries, that will be revealed according to Elohim’s Grace, in Yeshua’s holy name.

Like one of the Believers Rap-if this was about money (fame, followers, etc), then i would have left long ago. (And not come back)

R813 Ministries started because the Holy Spirit would/will not leave me alone until i do it!

One of those irritating blessings! The kind that the Lord bugs ya until ya do something you end up enjoying!

Discovering the workaholic thing is about punishing myself, the spirit of control!

Had me turning hard hearted!

Something i never felt before

A reminder indeed

Makes me less likely to harp on someone else’s faults, for hypocrisy, bit me in the *ss! Had a chunk missing and i heard myself yelling stuff i knew was wrong!

(Will i dance carefree ever again?)

Still war inside over letting this blog stuff go (You can take my life!- Th’sl), in favor of my sanity!

For something clamors inside

Desiring to cause panic, in…

Yet, i must focus on what is right-use-ness, on what is good

I pray He helps me get out of His Way

I lay down my crown (blog expectations, etc) willingly.

Mortified that I did not, for a long time

That is what the Sabbath is

Peace. Restoration. Healing. Re-alignment.

Crop rotation! 😁

For money does grow, on His Trees. Hallelujah and amen!

(When did it become difficult?)

Consuming sugar is helping me take Spiritual Attack better! (Have a low blood sugar problem) and quoting my favorite Psalms out loud helps with me housemates!

May the Lord bless you and may the Lord guide you, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen!

AND! Thank you to all who stick around and to those who read to the bottom! May the Lord bless you, 7 x 70! πŸ˜˜πŸ€—

R812 will post again 6/19/20 aka Thomas 19, Ra’ah1 πŸ‘‹πŸΎ

(Revision; Paul 25, Ra’ah1 (aka 3-25-20) R812 next post date will NOT be 6/19/20 after all! Due to adding on Monthly Sabbaticals (which last a week).

Haven’t Calendar-ed that far yet! With the Lord’s Grace and Mercy, i will keep you updated though (for right now i am winging it! Each Ministry post will contain post dates for next one (so far!)

I assume this will continue until, scheduling more than 5 months ahead will not stress me out just thinking about it! 😣

Till next time! May Elohim bless you more! πŸ˜šπŸ’‹πŸ’“


Matthew 10

i see so many people putting their all into their children, their spouse even.

Creating this perfect world around them, devoted to them.

Our devotion is to be for Elohim alone.

Our spouse 2nd to our relationship with Yeshua, the Christ.

Our children 3rd, to even that.

In the ways of Christ, in ways that do not conflict with Christ, in our hearts.

For the Holy Spirit will guide us in making such choices, every second of the day.

Thou art blessed to find & hold onto Christ, intimately, daily (secondly), for a year or more before finding a spouse.

For your spouse, your children need to see you dedicating yourself to Christ on the daily.

They will see this as you go about it normally. No need to be showy, nor hide it from your loved ones.

Everyone needs a break from each other.

Everyone needs to spend quality time with Christ, alone, individually.

Children may need to learn with you for awhile.

Spouses need to spend time together with Christ, intimately as well.

As a family too.

First individually, then spouses, then immediately family, then the rest….

Then your community at large.

Imagine everyone spending intimate time with Christ, first thing in the morning!

Like a wave across the planet!

Peace, the Holy Spirit washing over the entire planet in waves…


(In Yeshua’s holy name, I pray…amen.)

Description of a Citizen of Zion

Zion definitions:



From wiki-

Psalm 15

1 O Lord, who may abide in Your tent?

Who may dwell on Your holy hill?

2 He who walks with integrity, and works righteousness, And speaks truth in his heart.

How can one read the Bible & refuse to see?

For the Lord is showing me that similar inquires, similar thoughts have been brought before all!

So those who continue to be legalistic with the Bible, are those who are REFUSING the Holy Spirit!

Who keep choosing the pleasure of now, the easy way!

I had forgotten about Legalists! Having found those who at least on the surface, saw! Beyond, to the Spirit behind the words!

“I think that’s what this is, i need to verify it with my Pastor…”

Has me flabbergasted!

When did the Holy Spirit only become viable from/through the Pastor?

When did i begin to hear such things & not immediately become upset?

Because He is showing me how many times He comes to each & every one of us.

Same as He did with me.

I could tell that the person knew their argument (debate side) was weak!

For i could sense (see) it!

Yet this person never spoke it, will not admit it, even to themselves…

Later, quietly on their own, like i have done countless times!


The Lord shows me…

How can anyone leave a question unresolved? πŸ™‚

(Wow! A reason to be thankful many times i tortured myself…


I am not afraid to question?

To ask?

To explore?

To NOT know, to acknowledge i do not know…

Why are so many afraid of that?

Why do they choose to explore evil? Rather, things not of Him?

Legalists do not explore!

Do not seek! Do not thirst.

Standing in water, yet die from dehydration.

Commiting suicide, surrounded by the Bread of Life!

Depressed when He is Joy!

Phillip 25, DOL 1

3 He does not slander with his tongue,
Speaks the truth in his heart; he who does not backbite with his tongue:
David here understood that an upright and righteous life is known by the way someone speaks. As Jesus said in Matthew 12:34: Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.
i. “I think more damage has been done to the church and its work by gossip, criticism, and slander than by any other single sin. So I say, don’t do it. Bite your tongue before you criticize another Christian.” (Boice)
Nor does evil to his neighbor, Nor takes up a reproach against his friend;

4 In whose eyes a reprobate is despised, But who honors those who fear the Lord; He swears to his own hurt and does not change;

5 He does not put out his money at interest, Nor does he take a bribe against the innocent. He who does these things will never be shaken.

Embrace Your Weaknesses

(Pic only! So, links must be typed by you) πŸ™‚

I imagine actually hugging my weakness

Currently, sex addiction, not wanting to admit fault, not fully repenting, low self esteem…

I have to rebuild?

No. I remember trusting the Lord enough to be vulnerable!

Yes, but I feel the pain of others snide remarks, when/where I was bubble wrapped, remember?!

Yes and I accept my faults (I do confess my faults… For none forgive my faults but Thee…prayer B.C., Muslim. Just now, I know of more how true that prayer actually is)

Who can discern his error? Psalm 19:12

Who can see all of their own faults?

Do not let willfull sin rule over me

For then I will be blameless

Acquitted of great transgression.

Psalm 19, the above

It is like now those words live!

I am currently living them!

I have done as David did, committed Audultery, willingly too!

My mind so twisted up, up was down & I will no longer allow that!

I will no longer choose that path, inshallah, in Yeshua’s name I pray!

I was worried I was in ‘My David’s, being called Daughter of Life.

I even prayed about it ahead of time!

For that is one sin I begged not to commit.

Audultery was one sin I feared greatly & so I experienced it, in a way …

In other words, no other way would’ve convinced me it was ok at the time!

Now? I would literally choose a near death (physical resuscitation) experience over the hell the Lord freed me from.

It’s like I had to stay in the flames!

I had to stay around evil.

Until a weakness shown through, that brought me back to shame, to embarrassment.

And I won’t fully recover from it until I confess…I lost hope!

I am ashamed I lost hope!

That I lost You!

For You are My Hope!

I despaired.

In Christ, turning to Christ, hanging on despite my confusion, despite my doubt, I believed!

I am ashamed I doubted You.

Despite no hope, despite complete & utter darkness (again)…

For at first I just laid there, in my dejection.

Then I noticed that!

And I began to reach! I began to move!

It was rough, I was bound tight!

I continued to move my fingers anyway.

Then I could stretch out a whole arm, then my entire body crawled, with all of it’s injuries!

I crawled to the Lord, My Savior.

For I believed, in Him I would find my way again, despite how badly, how far off course I was.

So I got to Him so fast, because of my Faith!

For I was so blind.

Yet through it all…

I believed You would save me.

I was mortified at the timing, I expected to be saved, much earlier!

I experienced doubt because of it.

Because i was not rescued like I was accustomed to!

I knew the fault lay in myself.

Now I see how I could have endured that pain, of abandonment, a lot longer!

I am ashamed it did not.

That I was that easily compromised.

May I endure till the end of time.

It would have been preferable to halt, cease functioning, waiting on You.

To Be Still & Wait on Elohim.

Even though thou art in pain, intense pain.

I failed my crucifixion!

Could I have saved others in my pain?

Maybe, definitely myself!

It was pain in an unexpected area

One I believed I had immunity, a natural bubble wrap against!

Pride has definitely left me.

Self righteous no longer

May I remain true

In Yeshua’s holy name, I pray 😒 :’-( , amen

May you be blessed in Yeshua’s holy name, amen.

(While typing this, I really considered not posting it after all, I still wanted to hide!

Therefore, it may not make ‘sense’ to any of you, yet full disclosure (unless He says otherwise) has always been my plumbline.

Just in Christ, I have found a word, that explains it.

Honesty as pure & painful as I can stretch it, keeps me on the straight path!

Keeps me sober, keeps me in the Lord’s favor.

I am a Daughter of His heart then.

I believe He will teach …

(Oh! I am learning ‘new’ levels of confession! (Honesty)

For I was doubting such a high level of disclosure, about myself!

For me to question that was out of character, yet I needed it!

I needed a revaluation of things I have believed or done so long, that I have forgotten why!

Ty Yeshua, for reaching out to me in the darkness/the flames, the furnace.

I was ashamed I got a little burnt.

My Faith faltered.

I am ever so grateful it restarted!

Full disclosure via J2225.

For I did ask! Have been asking.

Answer received.

Ty Yeshua! 😘 Love You! β˜ΊοΈπŸ€—πŸ˜

Currently…Paul 23, DOL 1

Been noticing a trend (theme) from the Holy Spirit.

1. Let Go and Let God

(heard this many times B.C.)

2. Forgive

a.) if you do not forgive you shall not be forgiven. Matthew 6:14-15

b) Tell/Confess any division between you and God (Elohim)

1b. Anger at Elohim

2b. Not forgiving Elohim

3c. Elohim betrays? Never! πŸ™‚

3. Bless those who curse you

(Matthew 5:44, Luke 6:28)

a.) React/Respond unlike the World

b.) Anyone who thinks, acts/believes evil of /towards you, bless them! (including thyself)

(Luke 6:28)

(people who seek to hurt me in some way (crossing the street some Male Caucasian seeking to impress the female he was with, said, “See i go like this…” and put up his middle finger in my direction-Which took me several minutes later to process it even happened, cause my mind was focused elsewhere!0 (Downtown Seattle, homeless, suitcase on wheels & a couple of bags…i have noticed certain Caucasian Females who step right in front of me, too close mind you. (AND! snide comments like,”They are taking over.” ,”If that were me, i’d scream.) Bless them all! πŸ˜€

Then i discovered some additional steps in the book John, son of Thunder, by Ellen Gunderson Traylor

4. Do good to those who hate you

(Matthew 5:44)

Had a couple of subs and some salads i would never get around to eating before they ended up in worse condition.

i offered it to the lady (and others) who always has to be first in line and do not argue with her, etc, because the staff in the shelter will even make up a rule to cause you discomfort, to get kicked out, etc…in retaliation.

That was a few days ago.

Last night she offered me Maple Doughnut bars from the food bank.

This morning i discovered they were moldy!

i prayed for her.

5. pray for those who use you despitefully and persecute you.

(Matthew 5:44, Luke 6:28)

Do these things so that you will be Children of Elohim, Children of the Holy Spirit!

(Matthew 5:45)

So that Yeshua will ‘know’ you and others will know you as a Son or Daughter of Elohim, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen! πŸ˜€

(someone gave me an NIV (for i am keeping my Leather Bound NASB in storage and now my phone is dead? Typical!

i do not know how to keep a Bible and not worry about how i treat it. Having it be someone else’s first, is helpful.

The fact it is not brand new, etc.


When this 6’6 250 something Puerto Rican complexion, hair and all black guy, came up to me, to continue our ‘communication’ of last night, i pulled out my bible instead.

This happened 2 more times, till i didn’t pull it out and ended up following him somewhere.

Point is, another disappointment!

Another opportunity (a better one, a stronger one) to turn him down and keep it that way, tonight! In Yeshua’s holy name i pray! (and pray for me please! i soooo, need all the help i can get! For the spirit is willing, but my flesh…my flesh is extremely weak! (the Lord is increasing it incrementally, hallelujah!) πŸ˜€

His Rest 2

Many today complain of lack of time, how rushed they are, how stressed out they are.

Hebrews 3:7-11

7 Therefore, just asΒ the Holy Spirit says,“Today, if you hear His voice,
8 Do not harden your hearts as when they provoked Me,
As in the day of trial in the wilderness,
9 Where your fathers triedΒ MeΒ by testingΒ Me,
And saw My works forΒ forty years.“10 Therefore I was angry with this generation,
And said, β€˜They always go astray in their heart, And they did not know My ways’; As I swore in My wrath,
They shall not enter My rest.’”

The Peril of Unbelief

12 Take care, brethren, that there not be in any one of you an evil, unbelieving heartΒ that falls away fromΒ the living God.Β 13 ButΒ encourage one another day after day, as long as it isΒ stillΒ called β€œToday,” so that none of you will be hardened by theΒ deceitfulness of sin. 14 For we have become partakers of Christ,Β if we hold fast the beginning of ourΒ assurance firm until the end, 15 while it is said,

β€œToday if you hear His voice,
Do not harden your hearts, as when they provoked Me.”

Many do not believe they are commiting evil, by not putting Elohim first.

That they have plenty of time to put Elohim first.

Yet these same people claim not to have time, are stressed out and rushing around is gaining on them!

If you want more time, give more personal, quality time to Elohim!

For Hebrews 3:11 & Hebrews 4 says unrest is the peril of unbelief!

The Believer’s Rest

4Β Therefore, let us fear if, while a promise remains of entering His rest, any one of you may seem to haveΒ come short of it.Β For indeed we have had good news preached to us, just as they also; butΒ the wordΒ they heard did not profit them, becauseΒ it was not united by faith in those who heard.

For we who have believed enter that rest, just as He has said,

β€œAs I swore in My wrath,
They shall not enter My rest,”

Therefore, since it remains for some to enter it, and those who formerly had good news preached to them failed to enter because ofΒ disobedience,Β 

He again fixes a certain day, β€œToday,” sayingΒ through David after so long a time justΒ as has been said before,

β€œToday if you hear His voice,
Do not harden your hearts.”

Romans 8:12 has posted articles on hardheartedness before (search for hard heartedness or hardheartedness on Romans 8:12’s site for other articles, hard heartedness appears!).

Hardheartedness is also a curse from Elohim, for disobedience, which much of the world has today!

A person gaining more of the qualities of 1st Corinthians 13:4-8, is testimony to growth, new growth! Definately a closer connection with the Vine, Christ, Himself!

More opposition from people who do not even know you, can be another indicator of one’s effectiveness against the devoid.

Internally amazed at your own behavior, for the better, more Christ-like, is the best indicator of Elohim thinking of you as a believer! As obedient to Him. πŸ˜€

While others dance to things not of Christ (in His eyes), pray that they too, one day, not only experience His Peace, His Rest, while being alive, to also continue/remain in His Rest!

For the gulf is widening, the veil thickening between those who pretend belief & those who do not pretend!

Tis why the Holy Spirit has me reiterating His Rest!

For it is an urgent subject!

Since such urgency is being conveyed to me, by the Holy Spirit on this subject,

From past experience something really bad is coming & the only way to ‘weather’ it, will be in His Rest!

For the ‘unbending’ ones will break!

And may the believers be as the Palm Tree in a hurricane, firmly rooted & extremely flexible! Bubble Wrapped by Christ, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen!

(There are those who follow the Holy Spirit, yet have not verbally accepted Christ (& so one’s course/guidance from the Holy Spirit is not as clear, as it will be in Christ)…

Do not fear…He, Elohim will guide you closer to Him!

My darkest day without Yeshua, led me to Him.

May all true believers be included in His Rest, His Protection, His Strong Tower, during the coming storm, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen!

Any good deed outside of Christ falls by the wayside, becomes useless chaff:

John 5:4

Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruitΒ of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neitherΒ canΒ you unless you abide in Me.Β 

i bear witness how every good deed i did/attempted, instead led to my downfall! My destruction!

In Christ? Everything i do towards Elohim, is magnified 7-70 times!

B.C. i became overwhelmed, lost, bitter, burned, etc.

A.D., when i become overwhelmed & i cry out and give up, giving it to Christ, i discovered how i was arrogantly trying to do it myself!

How i got in His Way!

What Christ has been trying to teach me all along made sense now, made more sense!

i am discovering why it is so important for us to respond ‘in Love’ at all times!

We are blameless then! Free from sin, in those moments! In Yeshua’s eyes!

i no longer hurt someone like me, B.C.! πŸ˜€ (Crush their spirit).

i am much less afraid of sounding like a ‘Jesus Freak’.

Of being considered one by those not in Christ currently!

For many so-called-in Christ (Christians) have already accused me of such!

And regardless of the non-acceptance, i delivered! As demanded by the Holy Spirit, by Christ Himself.

As reiterated by Christ many times, in different ways!

(Elohim’s way of expressing urgency, direness. He repeats Himself!)

He may say it gently.

When He says it, anything, more than once?!

Please take it to heart!

Those under the guidance of the Holy Spirit, already understand this!

i have discovered my very bad breath, is an answer to a prayer B.C.,

A very strong desire to be ugly instead, sometimes i wished i could tear off my face…

For my looks had/have too many jump to the wrong conclusions!

And i was sick of it! πŸ™‚

Now, i see the benefit of being bait for Christ! ;-D

Being clear, unfettered bait, for Christ!

Currently fettered bait

(pic above, so links will not work)

A chain, enslavement, bondage bait!

And i want no fault or blame to be seen as i speak & walk in/of You, Oh Lord! πŸ˜€

i felt like Pinocchio, an unreal boy, begged to be ‘real’ to be normal.

Not appreciating the benefits of not being ‘normal’ until the Holy Spirit began talking to me, rescuing me, loving me! πŸ˜€

And so, i began with ‘self’, meaning those who claim Christ.

Today i begin with those who do not! Purposefully!

For we search for true believers (sheep) outside of Christ now, for they exist, as did i, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen! πŸ˜€

(Matthew 24, 2018 2pm PST)