R813 Ministries Deactivated

R813 Ministries will be deactivated in all forms (except maybe Pinterest) as of today 11/11/20 aka Nathaniel 11, RA’AH1 aka Veteran’s Day  (2 Timothy 2:4-My Commander, i obey…), in Yeshua’s Holy name, amen.

May we all accept Yeshua’s forgiveness. πŸ‘‹πŸ½

(Keep seeking & ye shall find!) ARM/JDHY

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Round Of Applause

Not for Legal Jobs
Congrats for that
For following Christ
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For rejecting anything not of Christ
Even for a moment
I realize
Like AA
This Christian thing is

Following Christ
Is like trying to be sober

Sometimes it’s second by second
Sometimes
We have to forgive ourselves
Admit
We cannot do ANYTHING on our own
Step 1
Of AA is sufficient for me
Everyday
It’s hard
And it’s not
Just major league painful right now
Being sober
Being Christian
Forgiving
Living

Forgiving myself
How?
When I know I’ll do something else
Somewhere
I am now
Indulging in self pity?
Naw…
How can one INDULGE in self pity?
How can one ENJOY pitying themselves?
Enjoy being a victim?
Unless…
They somehow believe they aren’t
A victim

That they are faking you out

Guess what?
Fake me out

That’s why I LOVE the verse that says: if you lead my little ones astray…intentionally…woe, whoa, to you, to them that intentionally deceive.

The suckers in life

That verse is for us

For me

When I look at myself
I cry
For I am weak
I am ugly
I sin
Without trying

When I look at You
I smile thru my tears
For YOUR gaze is sooo compassionate
Understanding
I cannot bear it
So without lifting my head
I offer up myself
My dis-ease
My affliction
My addiction

We are ALL drug addicts
We are ALL sin addicts

I admit it
Hi, I’m a sinaholic

By JDHY 4 years ago today Matthew 19, RA’AH1

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Have a blessed day.

Siesta Over?

Well, i tried to prepare a couple of weeks ago and then stress got a hold on my life!

Working on a few things, like changing Website themes, to go more with a newsletter feel.

Not spending $70 on a Website theme! (Even though it looks absolutely amazing!) (Breathtaking cost mulah folks!)

I am glad that Paul 8, Ra’ah is here and I am NOT all stressed out!

Cause i was worried there for a moment!

The good thing is my creativity is coming back and my positive outlook! (Even though the people who live upstairs in this shared house seem to enjoy pissing me off! 😁)

Breathe In Yeshua, Breathe Out is something I am working on! (Following my own advice, eh?)

I am up to 9 min now!

Thinking R813 Ministries (new name folks!) will begin to produce 1 newsletter every other week!

Like the end of this week (Sat or should it be Fri?) Publish a page/newsletter, instead of 1 or 2 articles a day, 7-14 articles every 2 weeks!

My brain says trying to produce 7-14 articles by Fri or Sat is too much!

So, this may be it for R812…this posting, for like 14 weeks or so!

Publish, take a week to publish next one! ie: Ps1127 would publish by the 28th of March!

This Sabbatical is already producing blessings on top of blessings – (Xross baby! 😁)

And there are other wonderful things happening concerning the Ministries, that will be revealed according to Elohim’s Grace, in Yeshua’s holy name.

Like one of the Believers Rap-if this was about money (fame, followers, etc), then i would have left long ago. (And not come back)

R813 Ministries started because the Holy Spirit would/will not leave me alone until i do it!

One of those irritating blessings! The kind that the Lord bugs ya until ya do something you end up enjoying!

Discovering the workaholic thing is about punishing myself, the spirit of control!

Had me turning hard hearted!

Something i never felt before

A reminder indeed

Makes me less likely to harp on someone else’s faults, for hypocrisy, bit me in the *ss! Had a chunk missing and i heard myself yelling stuff i knew was wrong!

(Will i dance carefree ever again?)

Still war inside over letting this blog stuff go (You can take my life!- Th’sl), in favor of my sanity!

For something clamors inside

Desiring to cause panic, in…

Yet, i must focus on what is right-use-ness, on what is good

I pray He helps me get out of His Way

I lay down my crown (blog expectations, etc) willingly.

Mortified that I did not, for a long time

That is what the Sabbath is

Peace. Restoration. Healing. Re-alignment.

Crop rotation! 😁

For money does grow, on His Trees. Hallelujah and amen!

(When did it become difficult?)

Consuming sugar is helping me take Spiritual Attack better! (Have a low blood sugar problem) and quoting my favorite Psalms out loud helps with me housemates!

May the Lord bless you and may the Lord guide you, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen!

AND! Thank you to all who stick around and to those who read to the bottom! May the Lord bless you, 7 x 70! πŸ˜˜πŸ€—

R812 will post again 6/19/20 aka Thomas 19, Ra’ah1 πŸ‘‹πŸΎ

(Revision; Paul 25, Ra’ah1 (aka 3-25-20) R812 next post date will NOT be 6/19/20 after all! Due to adding on Monthly Sabbaticals (which last a week).

Haven’t Calendar-ed that far yet! With the Lord’s Grace and Mercy, i will keep you updated though (for right now i am winging it! Each Ministry post will contain post dates for next one (so far!)

I assume this will continue until, scheduling more than 5 months ahead will not stress me out just thinking about it! 😣

Till next time! May Elohim bless you more! πŸ˜šπŸ’‹πŸ’“

Family

Matthew 10

i see so many people putting their all into their children, their spouse even.

Creating this perfect world around them, devoted to them.

Our devotion is to be for Elohim alone.

Our spouse 2nd to our relationship with Yeshua, the Christ.

Our children 3rd, to even that.

In the ways of Christ, in ways that do not conflict with Christ, in our hearts.

For the Holy Spirit will guide us in making such choices, every second of the day.

Thou art blessed to find & hold onto Christ, intimately, daily (secondly), for a year or more before finding a spouse.

For your spouse, your children need to see you dedicating yourself to Christ on the daily.

They will see this as you go about it normally. No need to be showy, nor hide it from your loved ones.

Everyone needs a break from each other.

Everyone needs to spend quality time with Christ, alone, individually.

Children may need to learn with you for awhile.

Spouses need to spend time together with Christ, intimately as well.

As a family too.

First individually, then spouses, then immediately family, then the rest….

Then your community at large.

Imagine everyone spending intimate time with Christ, first thing in the morning!

Like a wave across the planet!

Peace, the Holy Spirit washing over the entire planet in waves…

😌

(In Yeshua’s holy name, I pray…amen.)

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Psalm 15

1 O Lord, who may abide in Your tent?

Who may dwell on Your holy hill?

2 He who walks with integrity, and works righteousness, And speaks truth in his heart.

How can one read the Bible & refuse to see?

For the Lord is showing me that similar inquires, similar thoughts have been brought before all!

So those who continue to be legalistic with the Bible, are those who are REFUSING the Holy Spirit!

Who keep choosing the pleasure of now, the easy way!

I had forgotten about Legalists! Having found those who at least on the surface, saw! Beyond, to the Spirit behind the words!

“I think that’s what this is, i need to verify it with my Pastor…”

Has me flabbergasted!

When did the Holy Spirit only become viable from/through the Pastor?

When did i begin to hear such things & not immediately become upset?

Because He is showing me how many times He comes to each & every one of us.

Same as He did with me.

I could tell that the person knew their argument (debate side) was weak!

For i could sense (see) it!

Yet this person never spoke it, will not admit it, even to themselves…

Later, quietly on their own, like i have done countless times!

Introspection!

The Lord shows me…

How can anyone leave a question unresolved? πŸ™‚

(Wow! A reason to be thankful for..how many times i tortured myself…

πŸ’‘!

I am not afraid to question?

To ask?

To explore?

To NOT know, to acknowledge i do not know…

Why are so many afraid of that?

Why do they choose to explore evil? Rather, things not of Him?

Legalists do not explore!

Do not seek! Do not thirst.

Standing in water, yet die from dehydration.

Commiting suicide, surrounded by the Bread of Life!

Depressed when He is Joy!

Phillip 25, DOL 1

3 He does not slander with his tongue,

https://www.blueletterbible.org/Comm/guzik_david/StudyGuide2017-Psa/Psa-15.cfm
Speaks the truth in his heart; he who does not backbite with his tongue:
David here understood that an upright and righteous life is known by the way someone speaks. As Jesus said in Matthew 12:34: Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.
i. “I think more damage has been done to the church and its work by gossip, criticism, and slander than by any other single sin. So I say, don’t do it. Bite your tongue before you criticize another Christian.” (Boice)
Nor does evil to his neighbor, Nor takes up a reproach against his friend;

4 In whose eyes a reprobate is despised, But who honors those who fear the Lord; He swears to his own hurt and does not change;

5 He does not put out his money at interest, Nor does he take a bribe against the innocent. He who does these things will never be shaken.

Embrace Your Weaknesses

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I imagine actually hugging my weakness

Currently, sex addiction, not wanting to admit fault, not fully repenting, low self esteem…

I have to rebuild?

No. I remember trusting the Lord enough to be vulnerable!

Yes, but I feel the pain of others snide remarks, when/where I was bubble wrapped, remember?!

Yes and I accept my faults (I do confess my faults… For none forgive my faults but Thee…prayer B.C., Muslim. Just now, I know of more how true that prayer actually is)

Who can discern his error? Psalm 19:12

Who can see all of their own faults?

Do not let willfull sin rule over me

For then I will be blameless

Acquitted of great transgression.

Psalm 19, the above

It is like now those words live!

I am currently living them!

I have done as David did, committed Audultery, willingly too!

My mind so twisted up, up was down & I will no longer allow that!

I will no longer choose that path, inshallah, in Yeshua’s name I pray!

I was worried I was in ‘My David’s, being called Daughter of Life.

I even prayed about it ahead of time!

For that is one sin I begged not to commit.

Audultery was one sin I feared greatly & so I experienced it, in a way …

In other words, no other way would’ve convinced me it was ok at the time!

Now? I would literally choose a near death (physical resuscitation) experience over the hell the Lord freed me from.

It’s like I had to stay in the flames!

I had to stay around evil.

Until a weakness shown through, that brought me back to shame, to embarrassment.

And I won’t fully recover from it until I confess…I lost hope!

I am ashamed I lost hope!

That I lost You!

For You are My Hope!

I despaired.

In Christ, turning to Christ, hanging on despite my confusion, despite my doubt, I believed!

I am ashamed I doubted You.

Despite no hope, despite complete & utter darkness (again)…

For at first I just laid there, in my dejection.

Then I noticed that!

And I began to reach! I began to move!

It was rough, I was bound tight!

I continued to move my fingers anyway.

Then I could stretch out a whole arm, then my entire body crawled, with all of it’s injuries!

I crawled to the Lord, My Savior.

For I believed, in Him I would find my way again, despite how badly, how far off course I was.

So I got to Him so fast, because of my Faith!

For I was so blind.

Yet through it all…

I believed You would save me.

I was mortified at the timing, I expected to be saved, much earlier!

I experienced doubt because of it.

Because i was not rescued like I was accustomed to!

I knew the fault lay in myself.

Now I see how I could have endured that pain, of abandonment, a lot longer!

I am ashamed it did not.

That I was that easily compromised.

May I endure till the end of time.

It would have been preferable to halt, cease functioning, waiting on You.

To Be Still & Wait on Elohim.

Even though thou art in pain, intense pain.

I failed my crucifixion!

Could I have saved others in my pain?

Maybe, definitely myself!

It was pain in an unexpected area

One I believed I had immunity, a natural bubble wrap against!

Pride has definitely left me.

Self righteous no longer

May I remain true

In Yeshua’s holy name, I pray 😒 :’-( , amen

May you be blessed in Yeshua’s holy name, amen.

(While typing this, I really considered not posting it after all, I still wanted to hide!

Therefore, it may not make ‘sense’ to any of you, yet full disclosure (unless He says otherwise) has always been my plumbline.

Just in Christ, I have found a word, that explains it.

Honesty as pure & painful as I can stretch it, keeps me on the straight path!

Keeps me sober, keeps me in the Lord’s favor.

I am a Daughter of His heart then.

I believe He will teach …

(Oh! I am learning ‘new’ levels of confession! (Honesty)

For I was doubting such a high level of disclosure, about myself!

For me to question that was out of character, yet I needed it!

I needed a revaluation of things I have believed or done so long, that I have forgotten why!

Ty Yeshua, for reaching out to me in the darkness/the flames, the furnace.

I was ashamed I got a little burnt.

My Faith faltered.

I am ever so grateful it restarted!

Full disclosure via J2225.

For I did ask! Have been asking.

Answer received.

Ty Yeshua! 😘 Love You! β˜ΊοΈπŸ€—πŸ˜