What does the Bible say about gossip?

What does the Bible say about gossip?
— Read on www.google.com/amp/s/www.gotquestions.org/amp/gossip-Bible.html

Answer: The Hebrew word translated “gossip” in the Old Testament is defined as “one who reveals secrets, one who goes about as a talebearer or scandal-monger.” A gossiper is a person who has privileged information about people and proceeds to reveal that information to those who have no business knowing it. Gossip is distinguished from sharing information in two ways:

1. Intent. Gossipers often have the goal of building themselves up by making others look bad and exalting themselves as some kind of repositories of knowledge.

2. The type of information shared. Gossipers speak of the faults and failings of others, or reveal potentially embarrassing or shameful details regarding the lives of others without their knowledge or approval. Even if they mean no harm, it is still gossip.

In the book of Romans, Paul reveals the sinful nature and lawlessness of mankind, stating how God poured out His wrath on those who rejected His laws. Because they had turned away from God’s instruction and guidance, He gave them over to their sinful natures. The list of sins includes gossips and slanderers (Romans 1:29b-32). 

Romans 1:18-22

For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men who suppress the truth in unrighteousness,

because that which is known about God is evident within them; for God made it evident to them.

For even though they knew God, they did not honor Him as God or give thanks, but they became futile in their speculations, and their foolish heart was darkened.

Professing to be wise, they became fools,

(continues in actual idol making/fashioning)

The Gift of Knowledge, as i am discovering, is being able to ‘see’ & ‘hear’ Elohim, it is like the gift of understanding, many Prophets have this.

i have no ‘special’ knowledge, nor is there any i claim, and i share what i ‘know’. i am very open about it.

i am very open about my problems too.

There are things the Holy Spirit has me refrain from saying.

There are times i have disobeyed that.

i apologize for speaking the language of complaints & gossip, negativity.

i desire to be free of reproach/blame, yet that is not always the case.

i have been raised in a world full of such negative speech, i asked & continually ask for help, just like Isaiah:

Isaiah 6:5

Woe is me! for I am undone; because I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips: for mine eyes have seen the King, the LORD of hosts. (KJV for those who squabble over the Word, unrighteously-legalists)

i am sad to not be free of reproach in what i say, in what i have blogged, for i have been raised in a world of unclean lips…

People desire to rebuke & even curse me for things i have said.

They do not see how they are united in believing me to be evil, of evil intent.

As a man thinketh, so is he.

Many years i have never understood, never thought evil of another, innocent thinking,

i am sad (& angry) that i can now ‘see’ evil, i never before understood.

(i have been without the Daily Maintenance from Common Sense (Pastor, i pray that you listen & heed Tim Morrow, in relation to Kidney problems…for i too would prefer to die following/using the natural things Elohim has made for us, than these man-made machines and drugs (so called medicine).

(Being without the Daily’s, from Common Sense, has my mind fumbling, my speech, my typing, etc)

Yet even in my iniquity, like you said Pastor, those in Christ are trying to get out of it.

i am grateful that even though some see their evil reflected in me, they see Christ too!

Those who continue to perceive me as opposition or ‘disturbing’.

Yeah, i did bloody surgery.

i spoke up.

i shined light on a darkness that is in many churches (not just yours Pastor)

i am here, i blog how i navigate these things, most do not want spoken of…

Yet remain in Christ, remain with the Holy Spirit.

Like you said Pastor, if you don’t like how i stood up, then do it better! 😀

i seriously doubt you can.

i desire to learn to rebuke in Love.

Hurts really bad, doesn’t it?

You, Pastor, recognized & partially admitted the truth of what i said, by being contrite about it, hallelujah.

Anyone who bothers to research previous posts, a few years of them by the way,

Would remember me pointing out my own faults.

In the same article that the Pastor claims i gossiped about him in, i point out that my focus was on negativity, not Yeshua (tears come into my eyes now, up again, lack of sleep, night #2, remembering Rest, Peace. Matthew 14, Shemesh 1, Sunday)

The majority of the article is refocusing on Christ.

Most cannot handle having a light shined on their problems, intense light, even gentle loving light on a growth use to darkness, can seem very harsh!

Yet, i do more wrong being silent about these trials & tribulations, crosses no one else wants to bear.

Except i asked for the assignments no one else wanted to do!

“Send me! I’ll go!”

Isaiah 6:8

Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.

So, here i am, reluctantly, like Jonah (which is why i stay…too many years in that whale will do that to you), sad, like Jeremiah, asking for Elohim’s backloaded (backed up, stagnated, constipated, going septic) requests like Isaiah! 😀

Lately i have been shaking my head, knowing that the day of regretting my Isaiah moment would come, one day, being now.

Yet i grit my teeth, plant my feet and my hands (Sprinter stance), and shoot out that gate, a willing Thoroughbred with the Holy Spirit as my jockey! 😀 🏇

Team Jesus! 😀

Didst thou thinketh that one was above reproach?

That Elohim wouldn’t send someone to warn you?

Be grateful He went through the trouble, a little late getting to you because you didn’t want to hear it!

Shut folk down for trying!

So ya’ll get me!

Shouting it from Social Media, like Jonah…

Cause i didn’t want this job, Exhortation.

Knowing the opposition, knowing my faults would be pointed out in return.

i learned many years ago, on the school playground, is:

The best way to stop gossip, bullying because of my faults (& theirs)?

Is to beat them to the punch!

Gossip, slander, etc, loses its effectiveness, endpoint, purpose,

When i grab the mike and yell it to the whole world first!

Effective even after someone else gossips or slanders you.

The louder one tells on oneself, the more people you are willing to yell it to?

😀

i am so NOT ashamed!

So folks shame tactics don’t work on me!

For i am a new breed! 😀

Something never before seen or heard!

See how you mumbled your repentance?

i always up the ante!

Crank that speaker/amplifier up to earsplitting feedback!

Put it on repeat and start scratching a beat!

i’ve been asking the Holy Spirit to reveal the most embarrassing thing about myself i can think of…

He said no & reminds me i already have! 😀

No one is perfect, yet there are far too many who focus on others and never speak of their own faults.

i ain’t that one!

Never have been, hallelujah! 😀

Definitely a strange occurrance, eh?

That is i! 😀

Very freeing, to expose ones ‘dark creatures’ to the light before anyone else can! 😀

i pray to become more & more open to the guidance (rebukes and all!) of the Holy Spirit, sooner & sooner, faster & faster, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen!

One right-use-ness against a thousand! 😀

Do you have a thousand people in your first service? 😀

Make not the mistake of those before you.

i pray we all be better than Nineveh, by urgently teaching, pressing into the children, our mistakes, our faults, somehow conveying humbleness, saving them from becoming the same place in Nahum’s time.

For we have not truly repented/learned, if we are not desperate to save future generations from…

Is that it?

Tis not seen as that bad?

Not seen as the curse it is?

(Every word slices me too)

(For the truth is that way)

i speak nothing that comes not back on me.

No one is above reproach.

All my life i have had the Gift of Exhortation, so my skin is a lot tougher than it seems.

it takes courage to appear weak.

Without desire to trap anyone.

i trust Christ enough to appear, inconsequential.

To appear soft or easy.

to appear so flawed…

Only those who chose to hang on despite not understanding (confusion)

in their doubt, they push away doubt, for life, for Christ (reading advice from my own fingertips is Restoring me! 😀 Again, hallelujah! Matthew 14, Shemesh 1)

Tis why the Lord keeps blessing me, despite you believing/hoping/desiring otherwise for me.

i keep praying, hoping, desiring blessings for you (Pastor).

Like Jeremiah, i have seen and i cry.

i hid for years because of this.

Yet i am very tired of living 42 years without Yeshua.

Tis why, despite my uncouth delivery,

i deliver.

Unlike those before me.

i am Peter, too passionate, intimately involved in everything! 😀

Christ can do much with my run hot self (lava baby!) 😀

i refuse to make small mistakes!

(there really is no such thing in Elohim’s eyes)

i go big!

all or nothing stakes!

i bank on Jesus!

Take the wheel Lord! 😀

<drops mike & walks off stage>

Peace & Collard Greens! 😀

in Jesus’ name we pray, amen! 😀

(Matthew 8, Shemesh 1)

Lessons Learned

  • To not yell at others after 2 or more days.
  • To not chase after those determined to leave (during Church service, etc)
  • Ministry is a marriage & Elohim doesn’t like divorce. (Especially when He put/placed you there).
  • Not staying in one place = wishy-washyness, difficult to recieve blessings.

And…what am i willing to stick with, through the good & the bad? (Where is my Faithfulness?)

Feeling weak? Too tired to keep standing? Etc? (Difficulties of any kind…)

Listen to My Favorite Psalms!

On the 4th night of no sleep, i got through it by listening to Ps 23, 42, 19, 57, 27 & 34 on repeat, playing in one ear!

HALLELUJAH !

It is like being married in an abusive situation. (My current situation)

One becomes free & clear in His Way!

To not retaliate in any form.

To not be a victim in any form.

How does one do that/this?

Lessons Learned….One i am implementing, pretaining to the 3rd Way!

The Way Christ would respond, have us respond, to the world!

(For surely it is abusive eh?) 🙂

To learn to use the system (rules of society, etc) against itself! To learn to heap coals on another and be free of blame IN ELOHIM’s EYES!

To find that sweet spot & maintain it! Help it grow, keeping that flame alive!

The theme behind turn-the-other-cheek, take-my-shirt-give-my-cloak, coal-heaping verses!

They are all interconnected!

Not aggressive, not passive either, plus learning patience, with His Mercy & Grace!

For lately, the house has been quite or empty, during the day, allowing me to truly sleep!

Alhumdulillah ! 😀 Ty Yeshua! Ty Holy Spirit! Ty Elohim! My Father, My Protector, My Strong Tower! 😀

To completly rely on Elohim to cover me, when the person who was designated to do so doesn’t…

And inside begins to undercut everything/anything you/i do.

i am under the covering of Elohim Himself!

There are more with me than against me! (Hallelujah!) 😀

it may seem like it is just me. 😀

Yet i stand, with much human oposition.

And i WILL NOT RUN!

So help me Elohim!

So!

i keep my arms propped up with Psalm 23, 42, 19, 57, 27 & 34! 😀

Spiritual Warfare love! At its best!

No weapon formed against me shall prosper!

No trap laid for me shall prosper!

You (nor i) am in control of this situation! This is ALL Elohim!

<pulling out popcorn> 😀

All set to watch Your Glory Lord! 😀

Keep It Coming! 😀

In Yeshua’s holy name, amen! 😀

https://www.cpj.ca/defiance-not-compliance-turning-other-cheek

but the slave has already made their point. They have shown you that they are a human person with dignity and worth. You don’t own them, you cannot control them, and they do not submit to your rule.

Jesus’ instruction not to resist evil and to turn the other cheek transforms from an instruction to accept injustice into a challenge to resist systems of domination and oppression without the use of violence. 

Jesus is telling his followers to find creative, active, and nonviolent ways to assert their humanity and God’s love in the world!

even when we have no social, political, or economic power, we can still find ways to stand our ground, take control of the power dynamic, and cause people in power to see us in a new light without using violence. To do so is truly to be a citizen for public justice.

Without me actively striving to do this, the Lord is showing, guiding me how! 😀 With His Love, Mercy & Grace! Hallelujah!

The ‘striving’ i do is in my entreaties of Him, my desire to remain in that closer relationship!

So i am being gently curbed from my impatience! 😀

Gently curbed from my anger!

Protected from despair!

Shown another way! Everytime!

ALLAH U AKBAR! 😀

Ty Yeshua! From the bottom of my heart! TY! This is why i love You so!

You are so good to me!

😍😘

(Matthew 19! 😀 Fri, Shemesh 1, 7:56a PST)

2 Timothy 3 Idle Spirits

2 Timothy 3:1-2

But realize this, that in the last days difficult times will come. For men will be lovers of self, lovers of money, boastful, arrogant, revilers, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy,

2 Timothy 3:3

unloving, irreconcilable, malicious gossips, without self-control, brutal, haters of good,

2 Timothy 3:4

treacherous, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God,

2 Timothy 3:5

holding to a form of godliness, although they have denied its power; Avoid such men as these.

2 Timothy 3:6-7

For among them are those who enter into households and captivate weak ( or idle) women weighed down with sins, led on by various impulses, always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth.

(sound familar ladies? Idle/weak people are the same, regardless of gender!)

The majority of humanity is weak today! Idle in the ways of the Lord!

Know of anyone avoiding work in Christ, Pastors? 😀 (i can hear the roaring response now!) 😀

Know of anyone not overworked, in Ministry, my Sisters? 😀

These are the obvious idle-in-Christ.

There is another definition of idle. Those idle in their hearts, their spirits…in doing the works of Christ.

Those who are ‘busy’ yet ineffective, like the 2nd definition of of idle (in the above pic)

This is why practice Discernment of spirits now, when it is not dire you do so, yet!

The weaker one is in true Discernment, the more vulnerable one is to the influence & charm of the Anti-Christ when it comes. The easier it will be to be included in the majority who will be fooled, by the Anti-Christ.

Those who cannot stand now? Against the demonic attitudes/beliefs/priorities of today? Will have no defense against the Anti-Christ of soon!

What is true Discernment?

Best defined by what it isn’t, False Discernment.

Discernment is a Gift from the Holy Spirit, for every human.

Some people test for the Gift of Discernment now, being stronger in this Gift than general humanity.

All Gifts are to be used under the guidelines of 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, if not! Then the Gift is used selfishly, misused, benefitting self/the devoid, not Christ!

There are False Prophets, False Preachers (Shepherds), False Teachers and those who misuse the other Gifts from the Holy Spirit.

Wake Up People!

For this prepares the soil for the devoid/the Anti-Christ and its demons.

For far too many are afraid today! Afraid to stand in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8!

“Stand Up! If you got that power!” Deitrick Haddon-Power

Some are strong in Gift(s) from the Holy Spirit, yet use them (twist them), for themselves & not Christ!

Ego, Pride, Anger, Greed/Ambition/Competition, etc (anything not of Christ), blocks the blessing, the Gift(s) of the Holy Spirit was meant to benefit, humanity.

The Gifts were never meant to be used for status, grandstanding, personal gain (in some form).

When the Gift(s) of the Holy Spirit is used properly (1 Corinthians 13:4-8), then verses like this:

Acts 4:32-35

Now the full number of those who believed were of one heart and soul, and no one said that any of the things that belonged to him was his own, but they had everything in common. And with great power the apostles were giving their testimony to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus, and great grace was upon them all. There was not a needy person among them, for as many as were owners of lands or houses sold them and brought the proceeds of what was sold and laid it at the apostles’ feet, and it was distributed to each as any had need.

Are accomplished without effort on our part!

The longer one waits to attempt to ‘curb’ anything not of 1 Corinthians 13:4-8? The more difficult it becomes to even try!

Meaning anyones ‘good efforts’ outside of 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, will be consumed by the devoid, have no defense against the devoid, are useless!

Even though it may seem as if someone operating outside of 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, may seem to benefit greatly, in the end, it was not built on Yeshua

Matthew 7:24-27

Build Your House on the Rock

24 “Everyone then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25 And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house, but it did not fall, because it had been founded on the rock. 26 And everyone who hears these words of mine and does not do them will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand. 27 And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell, and great was the fall of it.”

Phillip 24, Shemesh 1

A Season for Every thing

Ecclesiastes 3:11

He has made everything beautiful in its time.

These verses, Ecc 3:11-14 have been expanded on at my mandatory attended Church. ( i am now free to choose?…)

My latest experience of jealousy from the pulpit has me so not excited to see these verses, my heart leapt & then died, thinking, “This is an already agreed upon study?”

Instead of enjoying what (& the fact of) the Holy Spirit (is) trying to convey…

So will all of this be made beautiful in time?

Is the time over for its beauty?

Is this relating to something else entirely?

Why am i so bummed about this? So disinhearted?

Why am i focused on the ugly things?

It is harder than usual not to be, for i am remiminded of what someone else said, “i don’t let things bother me.”

And they should!

i do not want to fall into that trap Lord! For it is far too easy to fall into the trap another is in, in close proximity to it!

(Pray on that)

Ok…how?

Lord, You are asking me…i pray to not fall in the traps i see all around me. For my focus is off of You! Bring me back Lord! Quickly please!

The trap of hardheartedness, criticism, bitterness, ugly spirts abound around me! Yet Thou Art The General! Of the Angel Armies! The Admiral, the President, Commander In Chief, My God Thou Art! 😀

Your Might outweighs, outnumbers physical sight! I am praying that the Angels of Elohim, will be as present and numerous on the physical plane, as they are spiritually! In Yeshua’s holy name, Amen!

To be easily seen, even by the very deaf, dumb & blind! in Yeshua’s holy name, may it be so!

For it is time!

in Yeshua’s holy name, amen! 😀

1 Timothy 4

NASB Bible Gateway.com

v1 But the Spirit explicitly says that in later times some will fall away from the faith, paying attention to deceitful spirits and doctrines of demons,

men who forbid marriage and advocate abstaining from foods which God has created to be gratefully shared in by those who believe and know the truth.

1 Timothy 4:3

(Catholic Priests are forbidden from marriage, ooo! & Lent! (abstaining from meat, etc. or does it mean more long term moments?

Everyone hopefully understands the pressure of NOT participating in Lent, is seen as an evil thing)

(for too many look at other people’s faith/beliefs, check self first! (me? My intimate family, the dwelling i live in? the Church i go to? The faith i claim & others see me as? Check these things first before automatically checking others.)

Let no one look down on your youthfulness, but rather in speech, conduct, love, faith and purity, show yourself an example of those who believe. Until I come, give attention to the public reading of Scripture, to exhortation and teaching. Do not neglect the spiritual gift within you, which was bestowed on you through prophetic utterance with the laying on of hands by the presbytery.

1 Timothy 4:12-14

Some have never had prophetic utterance or the laying of hands.

i do recommend the laying of hands by someone currently walking in the Holy Spirit!

One is baptized in the Holy Spirit this way. It can happen straight from Yeshua Himself, to you, yet Elohim works best through other people.

The Gifts of the Holy Spirit manifest the most around other people.

The Gifts are for others. The individual who has the gift is raised up, when the gift(s) are used via the Holy Spirit, for someone else! 😀

The gifts are to be done in the way of 1 Corinthians 13:4-8.

Difficult to do when angry, bitter, vengeful, hurting, etc.

That is why i tell the Lord i cannot handle Your Anger! 🙂

Most of the time i cannot tell where His Anger is and mine, together.

i have been experiencing people doubting me, believing my motivations were not good, thinking i lied or did something dishonest.

It didn’t bother me! 😀

An unusual thing for me! A blessing from the Holy Spirit indeed!

Self-control? Without any effort on my part. 😀

i see it as the effect of my closer relationship with Yeshua! 😀 He knows i didn’t do it and this proves that is all that matters to me.

i didn’t even blink, pause on it, nor did i spend lots of time thinking about it (like i have a tendency to do at the end of a day)

Being accused didn’t bother me! i’ve really grown in the Lord! He is truly protecting me. 😀

This morning, another incident happened, that may be connected to other malicious acts of late.

i was angry, i chose to play gospel hip-hop, etc at a very high volume instead of acting out in anger!

i found myself saying, “I need You to touch someone else Lord! For i do not need to!” Touch Me by Deitrich Haddon

“I got no reason to fear i got Jesus on my side!” I Got That by Anthony Brown &…

You Can’t Stop Me!” Andy Mineo “My biggest enemy is me, and even i can’t stop me!” 😀

That song brought it home, so i said (out loud), “You will NOT stop me from being merciful, from being kind, compassionate, happy, at peace!” 😀

Everytime we choose Yeshua over our self, our own fleshy desires, gives us victory! Strengthens us.

Everytime we take our worries to Yeshua (instead of to another person), we are asking Christ to handle it for us!

We learn to let Him do so! We are admitting our weaknesses.

We are leaning on the Lord! (That fall back exercise!)

Then we get to see His Glory, we get to see His hand in things. He enjoys being ‘Our Knight In Shinning Armour’! Our Champion! 😀

i can see Him smiling, glowing, enjoying this opportunity.

He loves us. He knows what is best for us!

i am grateful not to have bitterness ruin my heart! For anger not to rule my day, my thoughts, my actions.

And it is Bible Study tonight! 😀 Hallelujah!

Combined with House Meeting! Our first one all together, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen!

Been saying that a lot too…(in Yeshua’s name, amen!)

i am a Praiser! 😀

Some very powerful prayers happen then! 😀

i believe in the Holy Spirit overflowing out of me into my surroundings, into anyone in the vicinity!

i visualize it! 😀

One of my favorite ways of calling on the Lord! 😀

He tells/told me to continue being myself! This is what i do!

This is NOT a common thing here on the westside, especially in the PNW!

i will be that one!

Isaiah is back home ya’ll! :-D(YouTube won’t allow me to go to my playlists via cellular data only! Must be connected to wifi to change profiles!) :-p (For a certain song popped into my head! Aaargh!) 😀 Pick Me…? by…? Send Me, I’ll Go-Lecrae & Various Artists

Anywayz! Peace, joy & lots of happiness, in Yeshua’s holy name, amen! 😀

Phillip 13, Shemesh 1

Quote Aap LKJ 2, Shemesh

(above pic says: Faith is seeing light with your heart when all your eyes see is darkness)

i believe Faith is misunderstood by many

Having Faith, in Christ, regardless of circumstances, is a gift.

Do you want it?

i never thought my faith would ever shake

it was a scary time for me.

i began to ask Elohim why!

i would say, in my heart,” Lord, You know what is going on, i do not. I do not understand it at all. This is why i need You.”

Constantly.

This is why i pray for these days.

i pray for others, in crisis and i know them not!

i pray to not fall in the same trap.

For i have already witnessed other weaknesses in self, unforseen, the depths of it.

My Faith having earthquakes was in a weird way, welcomed…for i never understood others lack of Faith.

Yet here i was, questioning mine.

From past experiences, in other areas of weakness, i withdrew…as in i lightened my load.

I re-exaimined what Faith meant to me, what Christ meant to me.

Why am i under spiritual attack in this area?

Why am i experiencing negative thoughts/feelings just thinking about reading the Bible?

i never had this problem before, why now?

It came to me that i was out of my mind.

But, why?

Instead of doubting my Faith, i doubled down on the Bible.

i was saying to myself, ” You got problems reading the Bible? Just thinking about it?

Okay then, take this (verse), take that (verse) and that!…”

i began listening to the Bible more than once a day!

imaging the whole time, the demonic spirit thrashing around in death throws, screaming, instead of focusing on my (?) feelings, of the moment.

i drowned it, sufocated it, in my minds eye, remembering, saying, “Faith is not a feeling.” while listening, drawing, (the Bible) talking to Elohim, to Yeshua, to the Holy Spirit!

i became inventive in ways to incorporate the Bible into myself, besides reading it.

i did it regardless of how painful it was.

Hallelujah it wasn’t for long.

i became very angry that the devoid even tried!

to attack me here! at one of my pillars of Faith!

it was WWF in here ya’ll! 😀

i took the Word in, imaging a huge score on the enemy, with every verse!

i recorded my Favorite parts, Psalms (my faves are the ones that drew me), in my own voice.

Wrote them down and took them with me, whenever i left the house.

Reading them instead of talking to anyone.

i whispered/murmured them, while i read.

Not caring if i seemed crazier than usual, i am fighting for my life here!

The discomfort died quickly, not fast enough for me.

i remembered to not believe these ‘weird’ feelings were mine.

i fought them like the foreign entity they are.

Many make the mistake of believing everything we ‘feel’ is from ourselves, that it is you, who is feeling it.

Like feelings are reality.

Feelings may come and go.

it is up to us which ‘feelings’ we choose to act on!

i remembered, “Faith is unseen. Faith is things ‘hoped for’!”

and i remembered it is a verse in the Bible, while i said it!

Another death toll to the enemy.

Thanking the Holy Spirit, even now.

Knowing He was answering my prayers.

Knowing He is with me the entire time.

Knowing it is Him, who was strangling, drowning, attacking, angry that ‘they’ even dared to cross my threshold!

My Daughter’s threshold.

The Angel’s of the Lord were fighting for me , through me!

tears falling

as i read the same verses over and over.

Desperate i was.

Those Psalms are even more precious now.

i remembered why David was so tortured in these Psalms.

i saw myself the same way.

feeling shame that i didn’t do this earlier.

didn’t fight earlier

for even believing once that, that derision, was mine.

i apologized to the Holy Spirit

recognizing even as i write this,

accepting my part in this

(i cry for you all…if you feel it too -Lecrae Cry For You )

i am human too.

that i need You more than ever.

for taking down my superhero image

of myself

for draping me, covering me, with Your Eagles wings.

For being with me as i lost my mind.

My faith.

Keeping me strong.

For not alowing it to go unpunished for trespassing.

(told you, You Are Mine)

For even daring to come between us.

i pray(ed) that i keep You, beyond my last breath, no matter what happens, incoherently You.

if any part of my body functions, no matter how dysfunctional it may be, let every bit of it, be You.

Like Elijah’s bones.

May Thou be with me even then.

You are My Sanity, My Life.

i am brain dead without Thee.

Allow my body, absent of my mind, to only be used for You, oh Lord.

May ‘they’ never seperate us, even if i loose my mind, every last vestiage of humanity….

i cannot lose, will not lose, as long as i have You.

For You are my humanity.

My Everything.

(and yes, the Chicago Mass Choir song came to mind!)

all of this, reminders from the Holy Spirit.

My Faith, You are.

A simultaneous ty and wow! 😀

My Glory.

Thou Art.

😘

Hallelujah ! 😀